Holding it together is a look I’ve perfected
I amaze the crowd always owning the stage
Telling them all they want to hear so I’m never left unprotected
Screaming on the inside because after all I’m just an animal in a cage
You’ll see only what I want you to see but I bet it’s never what you expected
Blurred vision now suddenly crystal clear
Isolation involuntarily becomes more severe
Can I go back to stumbling around in the dark?
A simpler time before anger and poison filled my heart
Shedding layers of my mind
Desperately hoping it’ll help me unwind
This mental and emotional shedding is endless and exhausting suchlike my nights
My anxiety getting a one way ticket to torturous new heights
Every layer opens a chapter better left closed
Thinking I should have left it all buried but it’s already exposed
Today I wanted nothing but to watch the world burn.
A smile on my face watching the tables finally turn.
I find so much comfort hearing all of the cries.
You know, the world has such a catchy rhythm as it slowly dies.
Be careful if anger is leading you to seek revenge. Even when your list of justifications seem to have no end. Allowing anger to fuel your actions can be quite a nasty thing. It’s an unpredictable creature that can leave a life long sting.
These emotions are so overrated.
All boiling to the surface.
In the end I’m left devastated.
I hide my eyes and barricade my heart.
How was I too blind to see I was fucked from the start?
Always remember to keep your head up.
Even when it’s easier to look away.
You’ve never taken the easy way before so why would you start today?
Even when you’re judged by someone you thought was a friend.
Remember to keep your head up.
You’re not an entertainer in their life of pretend.
Can someone open a window?
I need some fresh air.
I’m starting to feel claustrophobic, all of this buzzing in my ear.
Thinking about it now I really couldn’t tell you the last time I didn’t want to disappear.
Sorry, just venting! 